01. FIRST DAY OF MY LIFE

I feel like im stoned, I wanna be alone, just for a while unknown
weeks on the road a long way from home, just shut off the phone
and you say I'll heal you I'll always be yours
and you say I'll kill you if I do something wrong, yeah, yeah

still feels like the first time
to stand here by your side
together regardless
we'll walk through the darkness
still feels like the first day of my life

remember the times, together we swore to never give up this life
still hanging on, still going strong, here I belong
and maybe I'm crazy but I just can't slow down
yeah maybe I'm crazy but at least I'm still around, yeah, yeah

02. IN THE SHADOW

No sleep, no sleep until I'm done with finding the answer.
Won't stop, won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer.
Sometimes I feel like going down and so is directed.
Somehow I know that I'm hunted to be wanted.

Chorus:
I've been watching, I've been waiting,
in the shadows, for my time.
I've been searching, I've been living,
for tomorrows, all my life.

In the Shadows... (x2)

They say.. that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe.
But I... I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave..
Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder.
Somehow I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder.

[chorus]

Lately I've been walking, walking in circles.
Watching, waiting for something.
Feel me, touch me,
heal me, come take me higher...

[chorus]

I've been watching, I've been waiting,
I've been searching, I've been living
for tomorrows

In the shadows... (x2)

I've been waiting...

03. STILL STANDING

I wish you were here tonight with me to see the northern lights
I wish you were here tonight with me
I wish I could have you by my side tonight when the sky is burning
I wish I could have you by my side

cause I've been down and I've been crawling
won't back down no more

can't you stop the lies falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear I'm still standing here

burns like a thousand stars, though you're light years away
burns like a thousand stars or more
you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me

It’s something scared, something so beautiful
something quiet to ease my mind
when the pressure's taking me over and over
cause I've been down and I've been crawling
pushed around, always falling
you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me

04. IN MY LIFE

Feel the heat below my feet
I have to go no time to sleep
Can't believe the things you say
Turn my head and walk away
You make me sick you make me nervous
Times are gone when you would say
This is the one and seize the day
Times are gone for honesty
"My victory is your defeat"
Oh can't you see you've been mistaken

In my life i decide and it turns me on
How i am, how i live, who i love
In my way i feel strong
And it turns me on
In my life, i decide, i decide

All you do, you can't deny it,
It's waste of time, waste of life
Can i suggest that you invest in something more than hopelessness
Before you know the ride is over

It's up to you if you give it up, give it up
I't's up to you if you wont stop

The record shows that you're dead but you're still living
Every time you have died you have been given
Another chance to fix your bad attitude
And make a movie, it's up to you

05. TIME TO BURN

Fear of the dark tears me apart
wont't leave me alone and time keeps running out

Just one more life, i'm so sick and tired
of singing the blues, i should turn my life around

Tell me why do i feel this way
All my life i've been standing on the borderline
Too many bridges burnes
Too many lies i've heard
I had a life but i can't go back
I can't do that, it will never be the same again
And i know i don't have any time to burn

They follow me home, disturbing my sleep
But i'll find a place, place where they cannot find me
Maybe i'm lost, and maybe i'm scared
But too many times i've closed the doors behind me

Leave it all behind
Cross the borderline
Face the truth, dont have any time to...
Don't have any time to burn

06. GUILTY

I feel guilty.
My words are empty.
No signs to give you.
I don't have the time for you.

You say I'm heartless.
And you say I don't care.
I used to be there for you.
And you've said I seem so dead, that I have changed.
But so have you.

Guilty, guilty I feel so
Empty, empty you know how to make me feel.

I put a shield upon you.
I didn't mean to hurt you.
You used to be there for me.
So don't you leave say goodbye.
Cause you have changed but so have I.

I never though that the time and the distance.
Between us made you so much colder.
I'll carry the world on my shoulders

07. NOT LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS

No more blame I am destined to keep you sane.
Gotta rescue the flame.
Gotta rescue the flame in your heart.
No more blood, I will be there for you my love.
I will stand by your side.
The world has forsaken my girl.
I should have seen it would be this way.
I should have known from the start what she's up to.
When you loved anf you've lost someone.
You know what it feels like to lose.
She's fading away, away from this world.
Drifting like a feather she's not like the other girls.
She lives in the clouds she talks to the birds.
Hopeless little one she's not like the other girls I know.
No more shame, she has felt too much pain, in her life.
In her mind she's repeating the words.
All the love you put out will return to you.

08. THE ONE I LOVE

Haven't slept in a week.
My bed has become my coffin.
Cannot breath, cannot speak.
My head's like a bomb, still waiting.
Take my heart and take my soul.
I don't need them anymore.

The one I love
is striking me down on my knees.
Drowning me in my dreams.
Over and over again.
Dragging me under.

Hypnoticed by the night.
Silently ricing beside me.
Emptiness, nothingless
is burning a hole inside me.
Take my faith and take my pride.
I don't need them anumore.

This bed has become my chapel of stone.
A garden of darkness to where I'm thrown.
So take my life, I don't need it anymore

09. BACK IN THE PICTURE

There were times in my life
I was down on my knees, now it's over.
Deep inside my heart I know.
Simply put I've been stabbed in the back ever since I remember.
Deep inside it hurt to let go.

I'm back in the picture.
I wonder what took so long, so long.

Dedicate everything I create
to my friends I would die for.
But you will always be the one.
Memories that you can't overrun,
memories I could cry for.
I thought I'd always be on the run.

10. FUNERAL SONG

I dumped you again.
I don't understand.
It's happened before.
Can't take it no more.

These foolish games.
Always end up in confusion.
I'll take you back
just to leave you once again.

I died in my dreams.
What's that supposed to mean?
Got lost in the fire.
I died in my dreams.
Reaching out for your hand
my fatal desire.

I've failed you again.
'Cause I let you stay.
I used to pretend
that I felt OK.

Just one big lie.
Such a perfect illusion.
I made you mine.
Just to hurt you once again.